Musings from the Midwest

Apples to Apples

My four year old eats an apple every morning for breakfast and sometimes another one for snack. It’s a bit much. I mean, I’m not saying this to brag, I would feed him pretty much anything to keep his ravenous hunger at bay. Luckily, an apple is not messy (if sliced) and other than an empty bowl left out, doesn’t leave a stream of sugary milk anywhere.

On occasion, there is a bad spot, a wormhole, a, I-don’t-know-what in the apple and try as I might I cut out the spot, slice it up and send it on its way to be eaten.  However, my kid knows something experientially, what I had to learn the hard way (finding bowls of uneaten apples and a new fresh apple bitten into).  One spot pretty much ruins the whole apple.  The smell, the taste, almost completely tainted by one small spot. It feels a bit ridiculous. A bit of melodrama coming from an apple.  Although, I might recall this is a fruit that has remained center stage in its association with evil (Garden of Eden & Snow White).  And at other times has tried to knock knowledge and sense into our lives and explain order out of chaos (thanks Newton #gravity).

It’s February, the month of candy hearts and Valentines and romantic gestures.  But it’s also Black History Month, a time to celebrate the great achievements of so many amazing leaders and revolutionaries in our culture who have been historically silenced and mistreated.  It’s a time for learning & humility, rather than misunderstanding and division.  Which is why, when this past summer, police brutality was described as merely a case of a few ‘bad apples,’ they clearly were misusing the intent of the saying.  It is not that one bad apple can be thrown out, it’s that one bad apple spoils the whole barrel.   Of course, we won’t throw police under the bus. This is the truth of sin anywhere- with anyone- and any system.  It’s not this neutral force waiting patiently to be rooted out.  No, it’s seeping beyond its bounds. Spreading. Growing.  Gaining strength and taking down innocents.  Which is why we can not approve of merely not being racist, the call is to be anti-racist.  And to do that, we must acknowledge we may have no idea what that entails.

So, we must learn. I must learn.  How do I participate in a society that continues to benefit certain people at the expense of others?  What actions can I take to change that?  What do I not know, that I need to know?  How can I humble myself and take the posture of a servant, rather than being the leader who calls the shots?

A favorite joke in our house is that “Love means never having to say you’re sorry.”  A phrase we likely saw as some sort of cliché house gift, a pillow or wall hanging.  It always makes us laugh, because the exact opposite is the case.  Love means you say you’re sorry. Not only that, it means you are not merely sorrowful, you ask for forgiveness (admitting to real guilt) and produce repentance (changed behavior).

Just “sorry” sometimes is just being lazy.  It’s not the truth. As women we are programmed to say this even when things are not our fault, sorry. Sorry sorry. Was I shopping here first and you cut me in line, sorry… I’m talking about something more than that. In fact, I’m asking for something opposite of that. We will not pretend we are to blame, we will not apologize for something we are afraid we might have done, or could be done, or what someone else thought we might have done… No we will take an honest to God look at ourselves, we will be brave, stare at our souls and do the real work of getting rid of the apples in our lives that are causing the whole barrel to go bad.  Not because we are ashamed, or BAD, but because it’s what must happen so that there is space for the GOOD.  We’ll show up. We’ll listen.  We’ll serve.  We’ll forgive, we’ll ask to be forgiven.  Because that’s what Love really does.


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1 Comment

  1. Timely and beautiful. A nudge to reflect and do the hard work of restoring what is broke.

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